....so ok, I need to move on from one topic to another because it's become more prevalent right now.  So after 3 years of not talking to someone; they contact me....now the situation with the person is that they were doing something stupid and unlike their other friends I still supported them, but the second I expressed concern....and yes it was concern and not judgement; I was told to fuck off...so I returned the favor.  So we havent spoken in 3 years and they message me...which is far more amusing than anything. So i respond to them letting them know i'm confused why they're even talking to me and that they're told me to fuck off and really I dont need this in my life...so the response to me was that my reality is warped and I told tehm to fuck off and that they werent trying to start a freindship or make peace.......um ok, so then why did you write me in the first place???  I know you werent just bored and though to yourself, maybe I should say hi...really?!  So I unleashed the beast in the most positive way i could...cause we all know that my being negative about anything right now isnt gonna help anything...so I basically recount the events that happend leading up to this blow out (just to remind them cause they are ever so forgetfull) and politely tell them they are a bad person...which in some ways made me feel good for standing my ground and in some made me sad beccause I really did miss this friend...but the bottom line is that my priorities require me to keep as much chaos and drama away as possible...I have enough without adding to the pile.

Through this whole ordeal...and yes it is certainly an ordeal...I have learned lots of things.  I have learned that some people will never grow up, some cannot accept criticism of any kind, toxic people intoxicate others and most importantly as much as you miss someone sometimes it's best to let them go...when I made the decision 3 years ago (almost to the date) to return the favor of telling them to fuck off I knew I had to let them go and this was really hard because we were really close...we had been through a lot together and it broke my heart...but I knew deep down things would never change with them and if I didn't cut the cord I would have gone down with them eventually...and yes it does make me sad because I held this person in such high regards and I fought against the world for them when no one else would...because I'm that kind of person...to be told in the end to fuck off...to feel like one of the few who were let into my world turned against me so viciously because they could not accept the fact that they were wrong...childish, silly &  arrogant....that's what the whole thing was...so again I've had to stand my ground becaue they proved that they had not change and probably never will with their response.

I don't hve room in my life for people like that...nor do I have the time.  I really do strive to be a better person because that's te only way to grow, but I guess some people don't see the bigger picture and that's out of my control...and so are they and I cannot fight for them the way I once did...because I have to fight for other things now.