Ok so this whole being nice all the time thing i starting to wear on me...not that being nice naturally is a big deal, but being nice when others are being less than is proving to be difficult...it's making physically tired...if someone is being a bitch or a dick to me  I should have every right to not be so nice...but I have to continue or all this work is for nothing....all of today is wearing on me.

Other than today I felt the need to write about respect...and the lack of it that I receive from some people....at the end of the day I am a grown ass adult, I work my ass off and I make sure my shit is handled.  So when I ask for my wishes to be respected I expect that to happen...and my wishes are really easy...so when I'm disrespected in such a manor I get really irritated...really really irritated, but I was good about this...

I'm just terribly over today...I sat in the sun too long and I'm tired...and now I'm being terribly irritated by ignorance...fuck.  I just need to go to bed.