Seriously one of the things I hate the most in life is being told something and then (not too long later) being told another story...hey asshole I'm not stupid and I have an extensive memory and what you told me this morning is different from what you're telling me now...so why bother switching the story?  It can't just be a case of forgetful error because for the last week you've had the same story until now....fuck you for thinking i'm stupid like that...this isn't what I need right now...ugh.  And then on top of this you tell me to relax...again fuck you...even though I want to reach through my computer right now I slapped on a smiley face and turned the conversation around with a painstaking chipper attitude and smile...though I want to blugeon something right now.

I had a pretty bad dream last night that made me feel on edge...and I remember in the dream just telling myself to wake up because I knew it wasn't real...kind of set me off today and put me in a wierd mood.  I'm tired of people bickering around me, I'm tired of feeling like I'm in the middle...I think it's time for some space from people in general...I'm too tired to deal with everyone and their bullshit (I have enough bullshit that isn't voluntary to deal with).